I hate you a little more with everyday. Fuck you for doing this to me again, ten fold.
For the first time I know what it’s like to have had sex and feel completely unloved. I hate you for that.
I used to be such a strong person. Despite depressions dark cloud, I always kept on. I just don’t see that light at the end of this tunnel. I was finally happy. I fell in love with my best friend. There was happiness, trust, love, and so much laughter. We built a life together, and I finally felt that comfort and security that I hadn’t felt since I was really young. I don’t know how to accept this. I don’t know how to move on again, in every sense. I feel like I’m stuck in an anxiety attack. I cry all the time, it’s basically my new hobby. I’m sick to my stomach when I think about this all being thrown away. So stressed that I can’t keep any food in for long. What do you do when the people you love, forget to love you back. How do you pick yourself back up. & then uproot your entire life yet again? I can’t seem to find the answer to this one.
Your all Iv ever wanted or had. & I fear the unknown.
All I want is for everything to be play, but i fear this time it wont be.
Known as “the river that ran away from paradise,” the Caño Cristales in northern Colombia is often considered the most beautiful river in the world (by john giuffo).
(Source: forbes.com, via skeletongarden)
